Come in Threes

It’s been a rough year.

2018 started with a break up, a move, and some shifts in work. I have always been a hopeless romantic so this break up sort of triggered everything else I would say. Once again I found myself saying goodbye to a person I thought a few months prior would be my husband. By April it felt like my entire life was falling apart as I still didn’t have anywhere to call home, I had lost two jobs and my relationship status was best represented by a glass jar full of paint being thrown against a wall. I had contemplated suicide for the first time since I was a teenager, but felt helpless as I realized I could never work up the nerve to go through it.

I got to a point where it felt like my three pillars – home life, work life, romantic life were just rubble at my feet. I had been love-bombed and gas-lit by a new lover, I had over a grand stolen from right under my nose by a toxic roommate, and I was making about 450 dollars a month as income.

5 months of crying myself to sleep (I’m surprised my tear ducts have anything left to give!) while feeling hopeless, helpless, unlovable, lazy, ugly, crazy, stupid, incapable and utterly lost.

And looking back on the last 5 months, I’m surprised yet delighted to see that I don’t have much else to say about it. Because looking back on things is so much easier than when you’re going through it!

The new yet soon over relationship was somehow one of the hardest break ups I have ever gone through (I’m still going through it). But during my clear-minded days I can see that this relationship was necessary for me to realize the toxic parts of me (none of us are perfect!), and also helped ease my thoughts of “what if?” as this person was a man I’ve pined over for the last decade. I miss him, I want him back, but I can also see a healthier, happier life without him.

I have finally found myself a new home with wonderful people in an amazing neighbourhood, a place that will finally encourage me to minimize my belongings and keep it simple. I have started a few new business ventures and have started a membership with Make Lemonade – a beautiful, empowering co-working space downtown that gives me so much inspiration to stay focused on my goals!

Time and time again, the universe has shown me that I will be alright. The universe sent me an amazing new friend, who has helped me tremendously with my self-esteem, with financial troubles, and with my broken heart. Despite reaching down and pulling me up to my feet, he motivates me to stay standing there on my own.

This year has weeded the people that don’t nourish my soul out, and has helped me solidify true friendships I see keeping for many many years to come.

And all within a day, I started my membership with Make Lemonade, I was offered my new apartment, and got my first class with Innergy Corporate Yoga.

The saying goes “Bad things come in threes” but good things do too 🙂

Pets & Sacred Beings

Two weeks ago I got a new pet. Her name is Levi (pronounced Leh-vie, not like the Blue Jeans). She is sweet, cuddly, playful, and she has brought me something I had been missing this past year – a young life to care for, to think about, to enjoy life with, and to teach me the beauty of nurturing something other than myself. And she is one of the most sacred creatures to span almost all cultures, religions and spiritual practices.

Levi is my new Snake.


Snakes are an amazing pet, one I would recommend for anyone, due to the extreme low maintenance. They eat once a week, enjoy being handled if you get them used to it from a young age, are perfectly content being by themselves, sleeping in a dark space for hours or even days, and despite what people may think – are very gentle creatures. Everyone has been bitten by their dog when they got a little too excited, it hurts, it sucks, but you’re not going to be scared of your dog – you know them, and you love them. It’s the same with snakes – if they ever bite you, they aren’t trying to kill you – you might have frightened them or they might have gotten confused and thought you were feeding them something – and we are much, much larger than them – they aren’t thinking about eating the one that loves them and feeds them – so if they ever bite you it’s the same as if your dog gives you a little nip – it’s nothing to be scared about. Snakes have lovely personalities, each one is unique – just like dogs – if you take the time to get to know them. A friend of mine, who owns 5 snakes, recently went on vacation and while he was away his roommates messaged him telling him that one of the snakes broke out of his enclosure – and he knew exactly which one it was – because he knew the personality of each of his slithery children. The snake was safely brought back to its enclosure, and when my friend got home, promptly wrote a shame sign for his snake, reading “I escaped three times while Dad was away”.

Growing up, I would have never thought I’d be the owner of a snake now. I always wanted a dog, or some other adorable furry creature (I’ve had a hamster, rats, cats, and a dog through the years), and as I got into my 20’s the idea of reptiles and snakes interested me, but I didn’t think I’d ever get one. With my partner being 1. allergic to cats and dogs and 2. a neat freak – furry, free range animals just aren’t in the cards for me anymore, and when my 5 snake wielding friend said he could get us a snake from his breeder, we decided to take the leap.

I think what makes snakes so amazing, but for some find so frightening, is how different they are from us. With no arms or legs, the inability to blink, the ability to swallow their meals whole and their constant shedding of skin, they are alien to us. For those who are scared of snakes, this alien quality makes it hard for them to understand that snakes can build a bond with you. But to me, this alien quality is divine, it is cosmic, it is deeply magical.


In my early 20’s I read a book called The Cosmic Serpent by Jeremy Narby. It is a non-fiction, about Jeremy writing a book about the cosmic serpent. It details his research of the serpent in ancient civilizations, and present cultures around the world. This began my fascination with snakes. At the time I was in the height of my hippie days, and although I still have not been to South America to participate, I was interested in Ayahuasca. Although the experience can be vastly different for everyone, Ayahuasca is often interconnected with the serpent, some saying the serpent spirit in is the vine used to make it. Many people recall visions of neon serpents, others feel as though they are a snake in these experiences. So why is the serpent connected to something like Ayahuasca, known to be one of the most psychedelic, psychoactive and hallucinogenic substances?

DNA as the Tree of Knowledge

Serpents are intertwined into almost every form of spirituality. The story of Adam and Eve is one of the first that Westerners know of. Believers in Christianity see this story as a test of faith, to trust in what God tells you or not. Adam and Eve failing to heed God’s warning and listening to the serpent is the beginning of the belief that humans are flawed, and born of sin. I see this story a little differently. The Tree of Knowledge is enlightenment, divinity, expanded consciousness, and when we attain this in our lives, we realize that we alone, and collectively, all living beings that were and are and are to come – are God. Some, who see the story this way turn it around to say that God lied to Adam and Eve, saying that by eating the fruit (and gaining enlightenment) death will follow, where the snake told the truth. But really, They both told truths. Enlightenment brings death to the old you, just like the snake sheds its skin, you are reborn, vibrating at a higher frequency, living at a higher consciousness.


Just like how the Serpent in the Garden of Eden was guiding Adam and Eve towards knowledge, and enlightenment, Shamans believe the Snake is an astral guide, helping with insight, global and cosmic awareness and intuition. Ayahuasca ceremonies are deeply rooted in this rebirth of consciousness, a metaphorical shedding of the old skin. Similar to this interpretation of the Adam and Eve story, many people who participate in Ayahuasca ceremonies at one point or another, feel and believe they are dead – later to be reborn.


In Aztec tradition, the great feathered serpent, Quetzalcoatl, was the God of the evening star. There are a hand full of myths surrounding his birth, one of which being he was one child of millions from Coatlicue, all of which make up the stars of the Milky Way. Another and more popular story is he was a twin brother to Tezcatlipoca. Quetzalcoatl didn’t like sacrifice to the gods, and stopped a sacrificial ceremony honouring his brother when he came to Earth in human form to show the people of Tollan (roughly Hidalgo, Mexico present day) a better way of life.


He brought them knowledge through books, astronomy, and the calendar. He taught them how to cultivate corn, as well as how to work with Jade and Obsidian. Metaphorically, The Great Feather Serpent brought enlightenment to the Aztec civilization. Quetzalcoatl was also known as the Rain God, creating union between terrestrial and rain waters, and for agricultural peoples, this represented life itself, giving the serpent the symbolism of life creation and fertility.


In Native American history, the snake takes a different form from their brothers to the south. Instead of a feather serpent who can fly and break the boundaries of this atmosphere and explore the vastness of space, the North American snake god is a horned serpent of the waters. Native American tribes believe snakes, while they use their bodies to feel vibrations through the earth to smell and help see what isn’t in front of them, to be deeply connected to the earth. This connection to the earth, is related to water because it is water the helps the earth to grow, and thrive. The story of The Horned Serpent of Native America changes from tribe to tribe. In Muscogee Creek traditions, the Horned Serpent is a friendly and peaceful creature of the water, while in Sioux tribes, it is a dangerous reptilian monster, and when the Thunderbird eventually destroyed the creature, it left behind the snakes and lizards we find in nature today.


Although the name and the stories surrounding The Horned Serpent change from tribe to tribe, the description of them stays somewhat similar, Anthropologist James Mooney, describes the Cherokee Horned Serpent, named Uktena:

Those who know say the Uktena is a great snake, as large around as a tree trunk, with horns on its head, and a bright blazing crest like a diamond on its forehead, and scales glowing like sparks of fire. It has rings or spots of color along its whole length, and can not be wounded except by shooting in the seventh spot from the head, because under this spot are its heart and its life. The blazing diamond is called Ulun’suti—”Transparent”—and he who can win it may become the greatest wonder worker of the tribe.

The Horned Serpent is sometimes seen as depicting a real animal, with some saying it was most likely a now-extinct giant alligator, but most stories speak of a supernatural character. They possessed magical abilities including shape-shifting, hypnotic powers and invisibility, and to those who either defeated or helped this creature, it would grant them powerful medicine.


 In Egypt, Apep is depicted as a snake, as is the greatest enemy of Ra. Ra being the God of the sun, the light bringer and the upholder of Ma’at (order), and Apep being known as the Lord of chaos, are often at odds with one another. Legend tells the story of Apep, lurking in the shadows of dawn, in the western mountain of Bakhu, waiting for Ra to come (as the sun sets in the west) where they would battle. Every morning when the sun would rise again, people would worship Ra for his triumph over Apep. For this reason, Apep was known to be from the underworld, of darkness. I think this depiction of the serpent connects back to the biblical representation. Ra is quite similar to the Christian God, both being seen as the sun, the light, the creator. The snake in the Garden of Eden created chaos when he convinced Eve to eat from the tree of knowledge, and playing off the notion that with light, there must be dark, Apep is there to be the ever-opposite to Ra. Even in this description of the serpent, being seen as the “bad guy” there is still something special about them. With chaos, comes an interesting form of enlightenment.


In India, snakes are both feared and revered. With snakes being found in all corners of the country, they are a huge part of the Hindu culture and religion. Serpents represent duality – eternity and materiality, life and death, time and timelessness – symbolizing the creation, preservation and destruction. In the Bhagavadgita, Krishna says “Among the serpents, I am Ananta”. Ananta is the infinite divine snake with endless coils, depicted in art as floating on the ocean of creation. Legend says that Ananta once eavesdropped on Shiva giving a secret lesson to Parvati – this lesson was the teachings of Yoga. When Shiva realized Ananta had overheard he told Ananta to go and spread this knowledge to mankind. Ananta assumed human form by the name of Patanjali, and wrote the Yoga Sutras.


Also in Yoga, the serpent is a huge part of Kundalini. Kundalini energy, or our divine sexual energy is depicted as a coiled snake living in our Muladhara Chakra (Root chakra). Through Yoga practice, both physical yoga as many know it to be, as well as other spiritual purifying practices, the Kundalini snake may begin to uncoil and climb up through the higher chakras, unlocking them. This is what people mean when they say “my heart chakra is open”, they have uncoiled their Kundalini energy up to the heart chakra, like how a snake can’t have its tail on the ground and reach the tallest branch without first climbing the lower limbs, Kundalini energy must grow through each chakra in order, until enlightenment is found at the crown chakra.

From personifying the clever and insightful people born in the year of the Chinese Zodiac Snake, to representing our inner desires which can sometimes be like snake poison – causing us to suffer for our dreams – Snakes are found in almost every culture and religion, so many that I got to a point in writing this blog post that I realized, I really can’t keep going!

So every time I hold Levi, I look into her ever-open eyes and wonder what she is thinking, what is she capable of thinking? She experiences the 5 senses in different ways from humans, so I wonder how snakes perceive the more complex parts of our consciousness as well.

Upcoming Workshop!

Moon ceremonies can have different details to them depending on each person who prepares, or engages in one, as well as what month in the year it is, and what each New and Full moon means in relation to the other planets. The general theme of Moon ceremonies is this though: New Moons we set intentions, and start anew – and two weeks later sometimes it can feel like all madness has broken loose. The Full Moon creates a spike in energy, in creativity, but also in negative aspects as well. The Full Moon creates rifts between people as emotions and tempers can flare.

Full Moon Ceremonies are for reconnecting with the intentions set with the New Moon, for allowing the building energy to help ground you once again and help you mend broken relationships, whether with yourself or with others.

The August Full moon is the Sturgeon Full Moon and the theme around this Moon Ceremony is about finding your personal success, while finding this balance in relationships.

On Tuesday, August 8th at 8:30pm I will be hosting a Full Moon Workshop with my friend and Reiki Master Kaya Kayin. The workshop will include holding Restorative Yoga postures to release tension in the body and relax the mind, Kaya will be giving Reiki healings throughout the evening and the night will end with an extended Savasana and Yoga Nidra (Guided Meditation). For those who regularly participate or hold Moon Ceremonies, I feel you will really enjoy the twist Kaya and I have brought to the ritual, and for those new to the idea of Moon Ceremonies – I believe this workshop will be right up your alley, as sometimes Moon Ceremonies can call upon participants to be vocal and vulnerable with one another, and that can be uncomfortable – This workshop is  for you to focus within, with guidance and love. All we ask of you is to relax, to breath, and to imagine.

Please Sign up online here to reserve your spot!

I hope to see you there!


Mental Dhanurasana

My life before Yoga was pretty normal. Without being able to experience what everyone else’s childhood and teen years were like, I can assume I dealt with about the average amount of adolescent problems. I was bullied for most of Elementary school, but still had a small group of friends that gave me a place to be myself, be creative, and be silly.

Middle school was when my first boyfriend broke up with me by yelling it across the class room, and when a rumour broke out that I was a lesbian the following year, I had to make up a boyfriend from a different school (I wasn’t a lesbian, and looking back, the idea of people thinking I was gay being so embarrassing to me that I needed to lie about a boyfriend is really heart-breaking. The fact that making a rumour about someone being gay, was effective social sabotage is also heart breaking – I only hope the younger generations are better than the kids my age). But through all that, I graduated happy and excited for highschool, and with a Science Award.

In Highschool my first “love” passed away a mere two months after we broke up, but I still had no problem falling for someone else and extremely prematurely getting engaged at the age of 17 (No, I did not get married). I lost best friends to stupid arguments, but made room in my life to make real connections with other people down the road.

Everyone had childhoods like mine, the details changed person to person but it was all very similar being from a middle-class neighbourhood. When I think about how my childhood could have been, if I didn’t have all the advantages of not worrying about money, or worrying about walking alone down my street in the dark, or simply the advantages coming along with having white skin, the life I did have growing up was a fairy-tale compared to tens of thousands of children around the world. But the idea of “you don’t have it as bad as others do”, can sometimes do more harm than good, as it can lead to suppressing how you really feel, forcing you to hide your insecurities in fear of being seen as spoiled, or a cry-baby, and this can even lead to mental health problems.

Despite having a privileged life, I hated myself. I almost jumped off a building when I was 15, luckily a friend was there to scoop me off the edge and spin me around and around until I was dizzy and laughing – he never knew my intentions, so thank god for coincidences. I fell into a mentally abusive and tormenting relationship and held on because I thought it was what I deserved. The bullying that happened to me as a child buried itself in my head and lead to my shyness, my desire to please, my fear of rejection and most of all the hatred I had for my body.

When a child should still have plenty of their baby fat, I was wishing I could be skinny like Christina Aguilera. I was never obese, but I hated that my thighs touched, that my shoulders were broad, my breasts were small, that my hip bones didn’t continue perfectly into a round, fit ass with one beautiful curve like an hourglass when looking at myself in the mirror. I hated the small pouch I had on my stomach, that no amount of starving myself or exercising would ever fully erase. I hated my skin, the constant bumps and black heads and the fact that picking at them would only make it worse – but I couldn’t stand to have acne so having scars was somehow better. What I hated most of all was how I learned my whole life to love myself for who I was, to not be superficial and to not compare myself to anyone else, and yet I was consumed with how I looked.

When I felt rejected, or socially anxious, it would lead to me either picking my skin or eating – which would lead to more hatred of my body. I always had a physical job, and embraced the masculine energy around my work in live events. Strutting around proudly in my steel toe boots and hard-hat, I still wished people would see me as an elegant, feminine wildflower. Like anyone with social anxiety or most mental health problems – it was the paradoxes that drove me crazy. Even when I was anorexic and looked at my ribs through my shirt in the mirror, I still saw broad shoulders and a pouch that curved the perfect straight line that I wanted to be there from sternum to pelvis – and saw “Fat”. When I made-out with every guy that showed me interest when I first started college, I still thought “Undesirable”. When at every graduation from elementary school to high school, I left with an award under my arm, I still believed “Stupid”.

I wish I could say I’m cured from the terrible thoughts that stewed in my mind growing up, but I’m not. I still think I look fat, I still have terrible skin that I insist on picking at, I still get into debates with people that in the end make me feel uneducated, and despite having the most understanding, accepting, patient and beautiful partner that makes me feel more loved than I have ever felt – I find myself asking why on earth he even wants someone like me.

This is where Yoga comes in. Yoga is not a perfect, clean fix – but it has helped greatly. I practice Ashtanga, so when I step on my mat, I don’t have to think about what to do – physically, although I have a very challenging practice, I go into auto-pilot – one posture follows the last until I’m done. But with my mind free of worrying about what I’m physically doing on my mat, it has free reign to worry about everything else. From that first sun salutation I start to tell myself “Oh, you don’t have to do all five Sun Salutation B’s” or “You know, it’s fine if you skip Vinyasa’s between sides”. As I’m approaching postures I have trouble with, my mind races again with thoughts like, “Just skip that one today” or even worse, “You’re not going to get it, why bother?”. Most postures remind me of my limited hip or shoulder flexibility and Vinyasa’s remind me of my weak core and make me feel like I’ll never be able to properly lift and kick my feet back into my Chaturanga’s.

I realize after reading that last paragraph it can sound like Yoga actually exacerbates mental health problems – as Yoga is a hugely mental practice. But after all the fighting my mind does, no matter how hard it tries to poke at my insecurities, I finish my practice. Savasana always comes, and when I sit up on my mat when it’s all over – the joy that fills my heart is like none other. Yes, there is satisfaction in connecting deeper with particular postures, but the act of simply starting, and finishing a practice is a huge win in the war against the mind. Since Yoga is so much more than just the physical postures, it only makes sense that when practicing the postures, more than just physical challenges arise.

I feel that my Yoga practice has helped me a lot since most of my anxieties stem from physical insecurity. When I practice, I feel more at peace with my body because, despite not looking perfect, I am always surprised and proud of the things my body can do. As I become more and more comfortable in my skin, I feel less afraid of rejection, because I have come to realize that those who reject me, are people I don’t need in my life anyways. As I surround myself with only those who love and accept me, I am able to come out of my shell and feel less shy or socially anxious.

When I was young, I assumed there was a point in life when everything just levels out and life becomes “easy”. But as I’ve grown, it’s become abundantly clear that there is no tipping point into the calm waters of a peaceful, stress free life. Life, as a whole, is a huge challenge – but that doesn’t mean every waking moment is a burden. Yoga is a great tool for showing yourself that the problems that you face in life are beatable. My Yoga practice is just two hours out of my day, but it is a reflection of how perseverance creates joy and satisfaction within. It proves to me every time I step off my mat, that I was able to do something that I was trying so hard to convince myself beforehand, that I couldn’t. Yoga has helped me realize that the twisted, cruel parts of our minds, that tell us all the terrible things about ourselves we are scared to and yet believe are true, is just a bunch of lies. That despite feeling your lowest, it is completely possible to get things done and feel amazing about it afterwards.

I have, of course, had struggles where the mind has won. Where I lay in bed thinking “It’s time to practice” but in the end, I don’t get out of bed until I no longer have time to. The days I don’t step on my mat, I feel it. I beat myself up about it because I can remember the last time I did, and how powerful and beautiful it made me feel. It gets me upset when I let my mind win those mornings because I have experienced the benefits of Yoga, yet that day, I let the twisted, dark part of myself drag me back down.

There is no solid fix for people struggling with their Mental Health. It’s a terrifying truth, because the mind has more power than I think anyone will ever understand. But what I have found in Yoga, is that even on the days where I lose the fight with my mind, I can still feel what it was like the days I won – and that helps keep me motivated to try again tomorrow.

Living In Ayurveda

In my both of my Teacher Training Courses, I took Ayurveda classes, and the main thing I learned about Ayurveda is that it’s unimaginable to me, to know everything about Ayurveda. Every class I took I was so interested in the content but when class would end I’d sit there with 50 more questions in my head.

The first step to Ayurveda is to discover your unique Dosha. Some people are dominantly one Dosha, two Doshas or they could be a somewhat equal mix of all three. Which ever combination you are, it is also important to note that despite your unique Dosha, everyone still has all three Doshas within them (confused yet?).

The Doshas are Vata, Pitta, and Kapha. If you’re familiar with the three body types we learned about in Health class back in middle school or high school, they relate to the Doshas in the physical context. Ectomorphs are our Vatas, the skinny, lanky body frame – these types of people have trouble gaining weight, their joints tend to crack and they are usually naturally flexible. Mesomorphs are Pittas – the medium body frame, larger shoulders, thicker thighs – the textbook Crossfit body. Endomorphs are our Kaphas – larger body frame, these types of people tend to have trouble losing weight and need regular exercise and a healthy diet to do so.

But of course, what makes Ayurveda so in depth and fascinating is how much more descriptive the Doshas are, both physically (down to the shape of your tongue and the colour of your finger nails) and mentally.

Beyond the physical attributes, Vata is known as the air Dosha. Vata people can be described as air-headed, forgetful, lovers of travel, spontaneous, flaky, free-spirited. In short, Vatas march to the beat of their own drum. In their diet Vatas tend to prefer bitter tastes and raw foods. It is easy for a Vata to feel cold and usually enjoy all different ways of working out or having fun (change is a friend to Vatas). When Vatas feel out of balance they can adopt “nervous habits” like nail biting, or fidgeting.

Pittas are known as the fire Dosha. Their personality can be quite intense, as Pittas are often described as knowing what they want, hot-headed, competitive, calculated, logical, and routine-oriented. Pittas usually like flavourful or spicy foods, while they often feel warm and when exposed to hot conditions, can over-heat much faster than Vatas or Kaphas. Pittas prefer a workout routine. I would say it’s a fair guess that most Crossfit enthusiasts are Pittas, as it takes a lot of discipline and drive to take up such an intense sport. Pittas also enjoy team sports as they love to compete. When Pittas are unbalanced, they can let their temper get the best of them; Road rage is a trait of the unbalanced Pitta.

Kaphas are the earth Dosha. Along the theme of their typically larger frames, Kaphas are grounded individuals. They can be described as nurturing, relaxed, compassionate, lazy, affectionate, reliable and forgiving. Kaphas have a sweet-tooth and tend to enjoy warmer climates. They are content to spend a day reading in one place, but if they were to have a day filled with running errands, they would spread their energy out evenly so they wouldn’t be exhausted by lunch time. Kaphas have great endurance – where Vatas and Pittas run sprint races, Kaphas run marathons. An unbalanced Kapha can suffer from depression, or struggle with their weight as they let their sweet-tooth take over their drive to eat healthy.

After reading these quick descriptions, you’re probably already realizing which Dosha or mixture of Doshas you are, and from there now what? The point behind knowing your Dosha is learning how to keep yourself balanced. And being balanced doesn’t mean becoming Tri-Doshic, it simply means if you feel good, you feel healthy, then you’re probably balanced – and if you feel the opposite of that, it’s time to try something else.

The unfortunate thing I learned when trying to balance my Doshas was that the things we tend to naturally like, can be our downfall. Kaphas loving junk food can lead to being over-weight, and Vatas loving raw foods can lead to them being even more air-headed. Balance comes when we accept moderation is in fact a good thing. Vatas eating warm, cooked meals help ground them, Pittas taking a restorative yoga class instead of their usual Moksha class helps cool them, and ingraining into your daily routine, a well rounded workout, can help Kaphas maintain a healthy lifestyle.

When I first learned about Ayurveda I immediately assumed I was Pitta-Vata, because “I’m not fat”. Of course once I dug deeper, I realized what an ignorant thing that was to think. By the end of my 200hr teacher training I had come to realize how much of a Kapha I really was (I should have known, I literally have a list in my phone of all the ridiculous things that evoke tears or an intense emotional response out of me – yes, some of the things on the list include: emotional moments from sit-coms, cartoons like Avatar the Last Airbender, when athletes are given standing ovations, when an entire crowd sings a song along with the artist on stage, or when I see a story about how a parent allows their toddler son to wear a dress to the grocery store because “I love him and let him express himself how ever he wants” – that last one though – props to amazing, accepting parents everywhere!)

If I were to take yet another Dosha test (you can find dozens online) my results all tend to be Kapha-Pitta, but next to your result, they also give you the percentages that you fall into each Dosha. Vata is always my lowest percentage, but still rather balanced with my Pitta – so I tend to consider myself Tri-Doshic. When I feel unbalanced, I experience negative traits from all three; nail biting, bad temper, and laziness – but when I feel balanced I experience positive traits of my dominant Kapha and Pitta; grounded, organized, and compassionate. I have fleeting moments of spontaneity and Vata-type qualities (like flying to India again just because two of my friends told me to) but once I got to India, I dug my heels in and made roots, like the Kapha I truly am.


To Start


I wasn’t sure how I wanted to do this whole website thing. When I started building it one of the default tabs is the Blog. I saw that tab and rolled my eyes, yet another yogi blog, that’s exactly what the internet needs! I don’t think I’m the kind of person to blog about super healthy recipes, nor do I have a lot to say in written form about the benefits of certain postures. Or maybe just not yet, because after I thought about it, all I really want to do, is show you who I am, and share my journey – hopefully encouraging others in their journey – and show the internet that Yogis are regular humans too.

I consider myself spiritual, and I believe in the soul, and the connection we all share to every living thing, and don’t get me wrong – I can get into a meditative groove that makes me feel like I’m on a shamanic retreat with Terrance Mckenna, but I just can’t be one of those outwardly super spiritual people. I have so many friends like that, and they are beautiful, and I admire their energy, but I guess I’m just too Kapha – I’m majorly grounded. You know the type I’m talking about – they’re the ones sitting in the park soaking in the trees energy that they sit under, or they spontaneously feel compelled to give a friend a Reiki healing or they’re dancing wildly in the drum circle. I’ve done all of those things, and when I see people like that my eyes always shine with inspiration – these types of people are amazing, and we need more of them, but in recent years I opt for sitting around the drum circle listening to the beat and sharing a beer with friends.

As I was discovering my spirituality in my early twenties, I went from my atheist, apathetic, lazy side of the spectrum to the other extreme. I experimented with psychoactive substances, explored crystals and energy healing – the height of my wild drum circle dancing days. Now that I’m a little older I’ve floated back down to earth with all the same beautiful lessons I’ve learned, but with a more relaxed way of expressing it.

I think what also helped ground me was my Yoga practice. It allows me to channel that spiritual energy into a practical, physical place within myself. I am thankful every day for my physical body and its ability to express my spiritual being in a tangible way.

One of my favourite comedians is Bill Hicks. He is a foul-mouthed, dark-humoured, politically charged comedian and one of his best quotes in my opinion puts my spiritual beliefs, and the laid back tone of those beliefs so perfectly. The context of the joke is that Bill wishes for once, there would be a positive drug story aired on the news:

“Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Heres Tom with the Weather.”
― Bill Hicks

I think that’s the perfect way to finish this first post. If you are still confused about when I said the word Kapha – don’t worry, I’ll post about Ayurveda and the Doshas soon.